Friday, July 30, 2010

Day 5: The Bf And His Bf

I woke up very normal, like I always do. I didn't feel effected by the prophecy from last night. The buzz wore off but I still believe in it though....

Today me and my besty Nige are meeting but he told me a few days upfront that his boyfriend (who I still had to meet) had this friend they wanted too hook me up with, right... Uhm... I'm not really a fan of meeting someone before seeing them? But he assured me that he was cute and totally my type, right...

Anyways he called me in the morning saying that the date was off but that we were still meeting, I'm like sure so imma be the third wheel on ya'lls whatever. Anyways Nige lives all the damn way in Northampton and I was dead ass broke (£20) so he came and picked me up (with the train) and we went all the way to Birmingham to go get his BF and then go back to go Northampton?! I was tired of all this damn traveling and after a lil 3 hours we finally arrived at the house.

First Impressions of the boyfriend: Shock! He was short, looked really young (he apparently shaved), skinny and totally not my best friends INITIAL type...
I've seen pictures of him but my impression of him from there lead me to think he was tall, a bit muscular, a bit more masculine in the face and older. This was the exact opposite! Like I always say: "some people know how to make good pictures of themselves" but he wasn't ugly or anything, he was cute if your into that and he has a nice personality, someone I can be friends with.

When we arrived at the house it was just fun and games till we got drunk! Then the hornyness came out in me! I was so frustrated my fucking blind date called off! Apparently he made other plans *rolls eyes* anyways I just endured while Nige and his BF were grindin to a whole bunch of songs playin from iTunes. Untill Nige and his boyfriend come grinding on me, whisper the song to me, biting my neck and ears and then all of a sudden the BF takes my chin and turns my head and softly comes in to kiss me!

He came in so close our lips barely touched but still made that kissy sound. Nige froze in shock looking at us... He didn't actually see us because he was in my neck on the other side. So he just heard the sound. He was like did ya'll kiss?! I'm like NO! Then the BF was like NO I WOULD NEVER! Then Nige fell to the floor laughing just shaking his head. Me and the bf smoke so we went outside to smoke. Talking bout first impressions and the kiss.

He was saying that he didn't do it on purpose and didn't meant to kiss me but wanted to go to my neck but didn't properly aim... BITCH PLEASE LOL that was such a lame excuse and I told him that. I mean come on u might have pulled back but not because ur lips touched mines but because your lips made a sound that's why. His lips didn't FALL on mines they MOVED towards and MOVED ON it.

Anyways after we went back inside we danced a lil, sorta had a 3man party and Nige and his BF were trying me! Grinding on me one by one and making grinding trains LOL But the funny thing is that Nige's BF (yes I won't give him a name because I won't mention him again after this I think, so no need) is a vers/top but he loves actin like a total bottom! LOL he was trying so hard saying stuff like show me how you do it, bring out the yardie in you... He shouldnt have said that cuz now the jamaican in me has to show himself, LOL. So I Lifted him up and grindin him in 3 diff air positions!

When we went for the second smoke we was talking bout my "pleasing" skills. He was saying like that I know how to please boys and not MEN, men meaning "boys" like him... I was flicking my fro and in shock he was saying this. I asked him where he based this on but he couldn't say much more than "I'm not saying your not good cuz I can see you got skills but you need to know who u pleasing and tune into that, you can't please a man, just boys and I am a man" obviously alcohol is at game too here because before all this he told me his exes were tall skinny lightskinned dudes and you may have noticed I'm not lightskinned BUT the tall and skinny part IS me so being a lil hazey of the alcohol and it being night, he might be getting the wrong ideas so I told him "uhm that's the thing your talking in general while you only mean yourself, I am not intending to know you like that so if I'm lacking in any part of the flirting&grinding game its cuz I do not wish to know you like that, your my best friends boyfriend. And trust me if I wanted to please you I could because I left all the MEN I've been with with a smile on their face"

After that we went inside danced again and this time the bf just took my pants off?! He was like strip and pushed Nige next to me. If I take off my pants you guys gotta strip. Right.... I was ready for bed at that point because I know when I get horny!!!! LORD HAVE MERCY! So we went to bed and yes something else happened

So Nige gets me a duvet and pillow to sleep on the couch and they were supposed to sleep upstairs in the bed. So when they were supposed to go up the bf was like imma stay here with Tonii and he got under the Duvet (I was already laying on the couch under it) and went in my nook (sex and the city watchers know what I mean) so uhm Nige went upstairs to go freshen up for bed and the bf just fell asleep on me in the 5 minutes and I was like whatever so I tried to fall asleep during the whole thing and at a certain point Nige comes down and has to PULL his husband out of the couch and drag him upstairs going to bed with my comment:

"Be safe I don't want grandchildren yet!"

Not knowing they wouldn't be having sex that night...

Thursday, July 29, 2010

*Day 1, 2, 3 & 4: "Tonii's Bridge Is Falling Down"

Its been a long time since I've updated...

Last time was the last day of Miami. Its a shame I've been neglecting the blog but I'm back and this time I'm blogging from LONDON, yes! But before we begin I have to summarize the past events leading up to this moment! Here goes:
-Me and Pariah finally broke up for real.
-I enrolled for school but am doubting to go due to money problems
-I'm dating this new guy let's call him Jay and were getting pretty serious.
-I've been having a writersblock for months
-and on a personal fun note I've been enjoying the art of Cooking!

So that's what my life has been looking like lately, work, cooking, dating and clubbin.

Now back to London. I had 3 delays flying with Easyjet from Amsterdam to London! I hate them... In one of them I decided to go to McDonalds yes I know, why make the damn mistake twice and miss my flight again! LOL I bought my food and ran to a screen and ate in front of it until my gate was announced so I def wouldn't miss it this time (read previous blog!) So I slept in the plane which took 45 minutes to get into London. So my mom picked me up from 1 of the 5 or 6 airports London has and brought me home but before that we stopped to go grocery shopping. Tesco's (uk equivalent to Wall Mart) I love that store and after that we went to get "Chicken&Chips". Contrary to what people think, more people get CHICKEN and chips instead of the stereotypical and cliche "Fish&Chips" especially black people LOL.

Well to skip the boring part I babysat the first and second night, and the 3rd evening.

BUT on the 3rd night I got company from my London Lover I've known him for 3 years now. We just have this chemistry and every time we see each other it just explodes LOL let's call him JD. So he came to see me that night while my mom was at this church convention that will be taking the place the whole 2 weeks I'm staying over. it was good seeying him and that explosion I was talking bout happened in the living room LOL I couldn't take it so I told him that its better if we go to his, so we did.

Amazin Night, Amazin Morning...

So after a lil while of chillin I had to go home because I couldn't get out of not going to church today (even though its a friday) so I'm at church now writing this. Being bored as usual. Waiting for the main service to begin. My mom came in early cuz she's one of the usher's during the convention. While we waiting and people start coming in one by one, this woman takes the mic and starts praying for us and preaching. Ok nice... Then she starts talking bout the blood of jezus. And screams:

THE BLOOD, THE BLOOD, THE BLOOD, THE BLOOD!



LOL I swear I died when she did that and I also made a lil vid of her while she was talking in tongues, Hilarious! I don't like it when people do that I always laugh and people hate me for laughing at it but it just tickles my funny bone I'm sorry!

Anywho Lauren America just arrived. She still gonna be my babymomma. She fine like a bitch! Sorry for cussing in the house of the lord/elementary school.
(I can't remember if I posted the blog where I was in church in London last time when I first mentioned her)

*Important SideNote: my Laptop gave up on me after a year and a half of loyal Service =(

And now I'm just waiting for the drama to start people to get white blankets thrown over them, hearing people speak in tongues, and people bumping their heads while they tryna feel the holy spirit. And now they singing standing and dancing. I'm sorry but I do NOT like Gospel music. I just don't. Its just a repetition of a line or 2or 3 for 5 minutes flowing over to a next song sounding like 1 long drama...

There's this really cute guy sittin behind me! He dark skinned, wearing jordan (turn on!) And grey skinnies with a yellow hoodie. And he hovering me and my fro the whole time LOL

The service for the rest was ok! And the most interesting part was that me and my mother got a prophecy by the prophet attending/hosting the convention. Well it wasn't too hard to pick me out of the bunch I'm 1 of the tallest (even sitting down) and I had an afro as big as the moon. Anyways he came up to me after a while and asked me why I didn't go to church that much, true! I don't go to church that often and told him I don't get the chance too. Then he said I should make this my resident church and should be here every Sunday. After that I had to get up and he told me in keylines:
- I will prosper and the oil of Jesus will drip on my head
- Millions will come to me at a young age
- the lord is seeing all the ideas in my head and they are good
- and that when I get rich I shouldn't forget about him and the church LOL

So imma be a millionaire at a young age... I really want it to happen LOL and I've been dreaming bout it, so now I just have to make it happen.

Church ended at 1am and I was mad hungry!!!!! So I attacked the Doritos bag I brought with me while I went through the whole "OMG (pointing at me and my mom) is that ur brother" act we get from most of the church people that don't know me... LOL me and my moms are the same length look alike and are pretty (so I've heard, u know I'm not the one to brag)

In the car on our way home we discussed our prophecies because right after me my mom got 1 too. He said that she's unhappily in a marriage now and that the wedding was rushed and that she had 3 men disappoint her in her life but she will find a God fearing guy and have the wedding she dreamed of. So I guess it was a good night for the family...

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Day Fourteen & Fifteen and a lil Sixteen: When Problems Take Over‏

I woke up to some saltfish and dumplings my gramps got for me. I woke up showered and had some breakfast. After saying my goodbye's to everyone my gramps drove me to the airport, we said our farewells and I was off.

Everything went smoothly untill I reached atlanta to transfer. I went straight to the gate untill I saw a mcdonalds. I was feeling kinda hungry and didn't really wanna eat the airplane food so I bought me a meal and walked to the gate. I saw this guy go through the doors and asked 1 of the 2 women standing there about boarding, she brushed me off. I waited till the other woman was free and I asked her and she told me I they just closed the gate and I missed my plane...

I got it re-Booked FOR THE SAME TIME THE NEXT DAY but I might have to pay $250 of the people at the gate don't check up on my boarding pass. I hope they won't and pray to god and Sex And The City they won't!

I wrote all the missing days while waiting on the next flight

I was talking to Pariah that I was writing while sitting here. He said what u writing? And I told him I was finishing my blog. I was shocked when he asked me if he could read it. So I told him no u gotta wait till I finish all the days of the vacation or else u won't understand, you'll get hurt. He's like why what happened? So I told him about JJ without really mentioning him. He got angry upset and disappointed with me.

We kinda talked/discussed it and he feels really betrayed and hurt. While I think he shouldn't have blew it up so much. I know I was wrong I admit BUT yeah ok you cheated first, you broke up with me twice for no reason. And all I did was cheat even you keeping score I should be the one still fucking upset but life doesn't work like that. Emotionally I found that he couldve been more understanding because he was bowing it up sooo much while I was angry and whatever too but I didn't let it get the best of me. Is it because it happened to you that u now fully comprehend the extend of of the meaning being hurt?

He wants me to make it up with him but honestly do I? The Bestie Nige also said u love this boy that's why ur saying you want him back but ur head says somethng else cuz ur distracted. I don't know my heart is ripped into a triangle with JJ, Pariah & Carson as the ends. (Haha yes ya'll forgot about him didn't ya'll)

He's still in the picture too, he bbm'ed me to ask about my atlanta situation. After that we just talked and said I was crazy. So I said that's why u like me right? He said I wanted to something but I thought never mind... I told him how can you say that now I'm curious!!! After some pulling I got him to confess that he said that he liked me for reasons beyond that. He started writing that I was sexy, fun, good in bed and all that good stuff and that we had to talk when I came back. I was like ok.... =p

I'm here from 3.45pm and its passed midnight now.

Me and Pariah had ANOTHER blow out cuz he was playing games in this whole forgiveness thing and he called me a sex addicted hoe. So I put some things straight. And now we in an open relatiosnhip till we live together.

I'm tired of this night its been emotionally straining....

And to top it off we just really broke up now because he couldn't take it.... Owh well. Its actually good that the Trinity is no more. I just never thought Pariah was the first one to drop from it...

Its 1.43am

And now were back on open relationship thing...

And then I decided to be monogamous towards him, he was happy

It was finally time to get on the plane and go home :D only to hear that Pariah tried to cheat but couldn't cuz he loved me to much? I was like no that's just you playing games again and I'm tired of this now.

So we decided to just stay friends

I am now making my way through Germany to go back home. I'm so tired and this last 2 day have been so straining on me ill probably faint when I'll hit my bed. Ugh and I gotta work tomorrow!

Welcome Back To Reality...

Day Thirteen: Family Matters

The next day I got ready for my grandpa to come and pick me up from the hotel. We agreed on Noon but he was a lil held up because of a road being cloased.

*Ring-Ring*

Frontdesk you're supposedto check out today...?

I'm like what?! I was supposed to stay till till tomorrow. Well it turnout I forgot to pay for the last day and didn't count the days right... OMG so I packed my bag as quick as I could and went downstairs. Checked out and waited with. Packed bag and waited for gramps and hoped he would mind me staying over so all of a sudden.

He came in this pick-up truck 15 minutes later and was everything I imagined him to be. Lol funny. He was very talkative and that was good because without some alcohol I can be quite shy sometimes... We talked bout a lot of things. Who was in the house my other cousins, uncles aunties and his girlfriend.

We arrived at his house which was in Miramar, quite a lil distance from downtown miami. I met my uncle who was 20 (a year older than me) and later another cousin who was 26 and was from NY here on holiday with her boyfriend and daughter. My granmps brought me to some stores and showed me around and I went to WALMART OMG! I love that store! But its just a shame the one I was in didn't have any guns. I wanted to see with my own eyes Guns in a Grocerystore.

We went back to the house ate something and Gramps started to get some trouble (he has a very bad health) so he went to lay down. Later my cousin and her husband came from the beach and had a drink and a smoke with me on the patio. I got soooo fucked up!! But it was fun ending the last day with them like that. I went to the couch and went to sleep.

Day Twelve: Satellites‏

We woke up. Me and JJ in the same bed and Jacques in the other. They were packing their bags because check-out was in a few minutes. I stayed in bed as long as I could. To linger in last night that came alive this morning.

We went downstairs they checked out and we walked out the hotel together, me JJ, Jacques and Sir. We had our last cigarette and while we did that I contemplated on my whole vacation and how my vacation would have been withouth them... I looked at the 3 of them. And I could honestly call them my friends and know I would have to go to their hometown to come and kick it with them.

We threw our cigarettes on the ground. And I looked at them again. I hugged Jacques first, JJ second an Sir third. As JJ and Sir walked left to the garage, Jacques waited on Yellow, I walked down the road looking back nostalgicly.

When I reached my hotel I felt a light depression come over me. I just took a nap to get over it but it didn't leave when I woke up. I heard JJ's words burning my ear keep communication! We should skype, he said while he hugged me. I went to the foodcourt to get something to eat but I didn't feel like eating anything cuz it reminded me of Pariah who was also stuck in my head. He also left me. While he hugged me goodbye he burned my ears. We'll keep messaging on bbm like crazy till I see you again, he said.

I came back to the hotel sat on the bed and messaged my mother that the number she gave me to reach my grandfather didn't work and that she should give him the hotel number so he could reach me.

While waiting on the response, one of my Ex-boyfriends saw that I put depressed in my status and started talking to me. While talking I started to realize that I've been so foolish. JJ is just a Summer Someone. Once I leave I probably won't feel like that bout him anymore and that Pariah was way more Interesting... Why he had a better feeling about Pariah I dunno. But it was funny to hear it from his mouth.

I got called by my grandpa whom I've never seen... We talked and he was gonna pick me up tomorrow. Good thing because I didn't know what the next day had in store for me...

Day Eleven: When The Cats Out The House, The Mice Dance On The Table‏

Insane title for an insane day...

Today was the second best day I had since my whole vacation. It was bittersweet knowing everyone left but the fun we had made up for so much!

Me and Pariah Woke up, showered got dressed, packed and held eachother till time came to say goodbye. A few times he broke down in some crying and to be honest I just wanted to be strong and not cry but when time came that he had to go I did shed a few manly tears hidden so he couldn't see.

I walked them down to the car hugged everyone and waved them goodbye. As I looked at the car going around the corner I thought is that the guy who I might end up with later in life? My soulmate? I can't say nottin for sure but its the best damn candidate untill now. Or do u think I'm exaggerating? LOL. I walked back in got showered and got ready for the rest of my day.

I called Steward to ask him what he was doin but it seemed as if he was gonna have sex so I bbm'ed Jacques but he didn't respond? I got called right after I called Steward again. It was JJ he was at the pool at the Hyatt just sunbading and asked me to come over. So I guess I did...

Packed my loose swimmingtrunks and went to the hyatt. I found JJ chillin at the pool with Sir and 2 guys I'm gonna call Ebony and Lovin'

Ebony is a dark chocolate guy that's a lil on the fem side but has an athletic build with a big ass low fade and is like 5.11ft so just an inch away from being an amazon.

Lovin' is 6.1ft thick really nice and an undercover freak! He's pretty in his face and had his hair short too.

So we met the day before at the beach already and it seemed they were a part of the gang too. So we got to talking and they went in and out the water every once a while and we got to meet 2 guys from dallas texas infront of us and later on a few guys that knew dutch guys! I was like huh are there more dutch people here? He was like yeah he looks like this blalabla I was like fine if he/they come(s) over lemme know. After a short while they come down and I'm being called over to their pool chairs.

We're having a funny lil conversation in our language, when Buff walks down. I hugg him and say u know they're dutch too?! He's like yeah that one is my cousin! I couldn't stop lauging!

So after the poolscene. We go up to the Room so everyone can get changed and Jacques who was discovering the world of Adam4Adam and BGC was having a blast in bed and sent us (JJ, Sir and me) on a field trip to Little Haiti to get him some food so he could have the room for himself.

I made a few to a lot of pictures of little haiti, its really funny to see the distance of city & ghetto is only a quarter mile and on the same street too. We got the food and drove back to the hotel.

Yeah it was kinda strange chillin wit JJ and his Boyfriend Sir. I didn't know if Sir knew about us and if he minded but he always stayed chill and I asked JJ too if he knew but he said he didn't think so.

Me and Sir, apart from the drunken beach fiasco, had some time to talk while we we're getting the car before we went to little haiti. I asked him if he had any dick already, probably to ease my mind about me sleeping with his boyfriend. He said he didn't he almost did cuz he had numbers and gave his but when they called he was already asleep so it didn't really work out but because this was the last night he said he was really gonna be on the prowl for dick.

Was that supposed to make me feel better... It sure as hell didn't. I'm not a boyfriendstealer. I'm too much of a romantic to do that to someone... They said their relationship is solid so I trust they know what they're doin. (Writing that just now felt like a sideline-ho trying to sweettalk what she doin)

We came back to the room and Sir went to his own room. We were deciding to go to the club or not. But unlike last time I kept my foot down and said I wasn't going anywhere cuz I was broke as hell. JJ didn't wanna go cuz they had checkout in the mornin.

After eating we decided to smoke. We're sitting downstairs in front at the hotel entrance with Ebony, JJ, Jacques, Steward and H. After a while Jacqus goes back upstairs because he had a fight with H. About Honesty. JJ decided to go somewhere and didn't come back for a long time. After a while Shorty and Joe walk by saying they're gonna get some alcohol. They did not eventually. So it was just me Ebony, Steward, and H.

Every 5 minutes someone came up to me and ask for a light so when this cute latino shorty came and asked for a light I told him its a light for ur number. We started talking but earlier we were talking bout getting other people dates so we tried it out on him. Me and Ebony went in while H. And Steward were just watching and laughing. We asked his name. I asked him are you a top? Ebony asked you got a big dick? I said can he sit on ur face, u do that? Then he said yeah but who you talking bout? Then Ebony said one of my friends sittin here if you could pick 1 of us which 1 would u pick. He said all of u I don't mind. (Very nonchalant but swaggerless) me and Ebony were looking at eachother like that was such a lame answer. So Ebony said its this one and he pointed to Steward. He looked like he didn't want Steward. I was laughing in my head!!!!! He said I'm gonna go up to my room to eat a burger ill be back. We were like can't he come with you?! He was like ok sure fin whatever. So Steward got up and went with him while we made sex and kissy noises LOL.

After a short while Ebony went upstairs but he was gonna be back after a lil while. JJ came back with some alcohol and Lovin' too coincidentally. We started drinking and decided to go up to Lovin' and Ebony's room after Ebony came down. It appeared all Steward did was give the lil latino shorty head and then he got kicked out the room! LMAO it wasn't funny but we were so drunk OMG we were rollin!!!

We went up to JJ and Jacques room because we decided to go to the Viceroy Hotel where Shorty, Fro and Joe have a Room, so we could go swimming! When we get to their hotelroom we meet these two guys with a room accross the hall 1 is a singer/songwriter and sang us a song (because I pressured him into doing that) OMG we all melted right there in the hallway. The other dude was a mix in a million dark skinned cutie who I was after untill we found out he only like white guys because he's been hurt by 2 black guys in previous relationships... U can smell it we had a MAJOR discussion about this in our room! Lol finally after it was done we went to the others hotel.

We didn't really do that much, just swim and talk. It was fun and so beautifull in the ViceRoy we decided to stay there next time but its like 500 a night I dunno if my budget is gonna allow that unless a share a room with someone LOL. JJ was feelin up on me in the pool a few times but it stayed kinda mellow between us. He did keep giving me the occasional look he gives me once every while but nothing really happened untill we went back to the Hotel everyone went to bed cuz we staid in the pool till almost 5am and they had to check out before 12!

I went back to the hyatt and Me and JJ spent the night together...

Day Nine & Ten: Crash

Day nine is so blurry I can't really remember what happened this day? Owh I remember MY HAIR!!!!

We went to this salon to get ourselves "pampered" Pariah did his lines and got his hair washed, RiRi did her nails and I was gonna get curls in my hair! But what this bitch did is straighten it out instead and gave me this lame ass jerry curl! No thank you! And then she tried to charge me $70 hell to the motherfucking no!!!!
I was so angry!

I didn't pay the whole thing.

After that we just walked ocean drive and Collins with the 2 girls and we tried to go out but we wasn't feeling it so I told RiRi go get urself a man, I like that nigga with the pink shirt. And what happened... He stepped up to her and they started talking they exchanged numbers and we went back to the hotel. While me and Pariah were getting it on RiRi went back to Ocean drive to meet him and Fucked his brains out LOL.

This we had to hear the next day.

Sunday, they had this big black gay thing on the Haulover Park Beach aka the Nude Beach. Everyone was there all my friends including JJ, so after sitting in the sand for a lil while I bump into a Shorty, Fro, Sir and Steward. Steward was a lil mad we haven't contacted eachother that much since he went into the Hyatt on thursday. So after some talking he cooled off And I introduced Pariah to everyone. Then we bumped into Jacques and JJ and they met too. We jumped in to the super salty ass water and had sum fun, all of us.

RiRi decided she wants to go and charge her phone, because she was bored and didn't wanna go in the water. She took her bag with her that contained my shirt, Pariah's pants and his slippers. We were sittin on the beach again and Sir took my Cap and pulled me to go find some men on the beach for him, so I told Pariah ill be back in a second. Wrong move...

We encounter *Yellow* and he is so drunk callin Sir his brother and wanting to take pictures with everyone on the beach. While me and Sir just wanted to go toilet at a certain point. It was a big ass hassle to pee and get back to the beach thanks to Yellow. When I came back to the spot I saw everyone except Pariah. He packed all the stuff. And his batt was empty so he was playing with my phone. After 2 minutes of stressing I see him walking towards me. HE WAS PISSED!

"How could u leave me like that, I felt like a fool sittin there waiting on you. Ur friends asking me where u at and I'm like idunno. I almost cried u know that, I hate this feeling. That's why I don't like relationships." While we were walking towards the exit I had a lot of apologyzing to do. I eventually set him straight by reminding him how he made me feel with a few actions of his that were 10 times worse.

We took the bus back to ocean drive to meet up with the 2 girls get some alcohol and drink it in their hotelroom in the Days Inn. They were sleepin with almost 9 girls in a room with only 2 beds... that's ghetto...
After a dry night @ the hotel room of the 2 girls drove us home. Where RiRi left for Ocean me and Pariah had our last night together which was a lil emotional but more sexual.

He was leaving back home with the others at Noon

Day Eight: Change of Heart‏

I slept in till really late. I was tired like crazy!!! I think I stayed in bed till almost 3 or 4pm me and Pariah were bbm-ing untill he arrived. I went downstairs to go get him. I looked a hot mess but I really didn't care that much because I was so tired!

When I saw him... He was exactly how I imagined him to be, but just a lil taller. He and one of his girlfriends let's call her RiRi was there too. I walked down the stairs and made a grand entrance they looked to the right staring at me. after a quick hello they brought their luggage up to my room first before RiRi going back down to get her a room for herself. I looked at Pariah and I just wanted to hug him.

We kissed for the first time and it as if I already knew him... Honestly I'd rather feel that over butterflies at the first kiss because that always indicates Epic things and those relationships end up not how I want them 2. We got to know each other physically, aka sex. And it felt good too as if we knew one another.

After a quick shower a wardrobe change and a few kisses later we went to get some food at the bayside marketplace. Its in downtown miami near my hotel and it has a foodcourt. We all got to know each other real good and I became friends with RiRi as well. After that, they 2 girls they drove all the way from Wisconsin with that slept in a diff hotel, came and picked us up and we went to this Rookie NFL players hotelroom (seriously I forgot his name...) But the party was so wack. There were like 3 guys watching basketball and 25 girls were 20 of them were underage and they were either sittin in the bedroom or else smoking or watching TV.

We left real early like after 10 minutes. We walked down to a liquor store and got some drinks and went back to the hotel but not to the room! We went to the beach behind it and the 2 girls joined us later on. Pariah says I get really talkative when I'm drunk. We just had some fun on the beach before going back to the hotel.

I didn't see JJ that day at all and to be honest I thought about him when I kissed Pariah just a few times. I know that's really stupid... And does it mean anything? NO. It does not. at least u think so?

I don't even know why I'm doing this comparison...

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Day Seven: For The Love Of Tonii

After that crazy exhausting night we had breakfast on the Patio. Later we checked into the hyatt where I bumped into JJ and Jacques we said hello and promised to met up later. We went to Aventura Mall to do some shopping and I found such a nice jacket for just $20 in urban outfitters. I was satisfied.

The morning and afternoon was just a regular tourist-ish day.

When we came back to the hotel I met Steward, Jacques and JJ in the lobby. So from there we started chillin and I asked if JJ had a roomkey, he was like yeah I do why? I just grabbed him and went upstairs.

In the room we started making out and everything. We got naked and got under the covers. Jacques and Steward entered the room. And they pulled the covers back. Steward: "Ya'll Carrying on!" we got dressed and after a while more people start entering the room. So JJ told me he had a roomkey for a room they used to stay in but they got moved. We got dressed and kissed our way to the next room down the hall.

We got undressed and before u knew it we were at it. The sex was almost amazin I'm not gonna lie it could've been better but we clicked though I felt that and saw in his face he was enjoying it. We showered after, freshened up and went back to the room.

We walked around the neighborhood and just talked and when we got back to the hotel 2 new additions to the gang presented themselves let's call them Shorty and Fro. Shorty like his name is short and light skinned masculine with a slightly light voice. Fro has the prettiest curly afro I have ever seen! Hence the nickname LOL but he just a lil darker than me and just as tall. I labeled him an amazon, like me.

After a very long discussion we went and decided we were gonna go clubbin. We went to this club Ice Palace. I thought it was boring... It was filled with black gay people who were not hittin on me... LOL not that I wanted too because I was not drunk either high enough to deal with them :p I did say hello or an occasional ur cute too at guys that was staring just a little too long, and they turned. ugh.... I was like whatever if u aint got the balls to talk to me then don't stare! After a little bit of dancing and having fun and a lot walking!!! We went back to the hotel.

We (JJ, Jacques, Fro, Joe, Shorty) were just chillin in the hotel after the club and after a short while everyone decided to "sleep" Jacques fell asleep in a second and JJ was laying next to him and he asked me to come in the bed with him, I did. We just kissed till like 5 or 6am. And to my surprise Fro and Shorty were getting it on, on the other bed! LOL

I only stayed so long because I misunderstood that the boy I was talking about in "an American Affaires" blog aka Pariah was supposed to be here @ 5am but it turned out to be 5pm. After my hours long farewell kiss I went to my hotel to wake up to a mixed up situation between me my summer love and my american boyfriend...

Monday, May 31, 2010

Day Six: iDunno What 2 Call It

The morning after...

I woke up with JJ in my arms, Steward back on the chairs, and H. Joe & Jacques in the other bed still.

I loved waking up like that to be honest...

I'm developing a summer crush, I realize while writing this. I've never really been on vacation by myself (without family) so I HAD the opportunity to this time and it never occurred to me that it WOULD happen. I just came to have fun but feelings are unpredictable...

He turned around JJ: "good morning sexy" why did I just melt when he said that? He kissed me... butterflies. A kiss that tasted like "I want it all". I looked him in his eye and he fell back asleep.

The first bitch to woke up was Jacques his loud ass woke up everyone and we showered and talked and stalled and when we got down to the pool it was 9.20am! Jacques was like "what time is it? 12 or summin right?" We were like nooo its 9.20. "Why the fuck are we down here so early!" You woke up so damn early...

Me H. JJ and Jacques were down sunbathing and having some fun And Jacques and I were talking while laying on the beach and JJ and H. Were in the water. We were talking about the fact that JJ was acting extra in front of H. With me. Complicated story but I was not to blame but I said I wanted to be more aware of the situation and all was fine.

I have the biggest hickeys in the history of my life!!! Jacques and JJ messed up my neck real good! It wasn’t even funny how nasty it looked it’s all purple going from left to right. I just walked around with it because the only way to cover it was gonna be make up because it was all around my neck.

Steward left in the morning with Sir to go change the car they rented in fort Lauderdale so I was alone with his friends. I didn’t mind because it seems they enjoyed my company and I really was just one of them. We went up to the hotel after a short while to shower again so we could get something to eat. Steward and Sir came back in between all of that and when they went to eat me and Steward went back to my hotel and stopped at McDonalds on the way.

Steward was actin a lil distant on the way to the bus, during the bus and until far later when we came back to the hotel and he had his nap. He probably I was carrying on too much with JJ. I figured that out right after he told me LOL.

Anyways friends of mines from the Hometown arrived in Florida today and they were at south beach having drinks. So I went in the shower to get ready to go and meet them. While I was in there I could hear Steward call this male hotline for black guys. I thought to myself is this how far we have to go to get laid these days. Leaving horny messages for a million anonymous guys, picked out between a million others and end up disappointed? Personally the furthest I’ve gone and will go is a dating/hook-up website (BGC, Adam, etc).

I came out of the shower and it appeared that he hooked US up? I was like what? No thanks! I aint tryna get it on with some random nigga you met off the phone, I can’t take! So I was getting ready to go and meet my friends and I asked Steward to come with me, and I even offered him to come with but he said he had no money for bus fare.

The guy knocked on the door… I was not surprised to see what revealed itself on the other side. This 5.11ft kinda thickish fat guy with lower gold teeth, scruffy, lil hillbilly nigga. I forgot his name and ill forget his whole existence after I post this blog! I was so angry at Steward but I didn’t show it. What happened that made me even angrier is that Steward didn’t like him! So the guy started touching me up! Uhm hello no thank you I'm going. Steward was making stupid excuses to go in the bathroom so he wouldn’t have to deal with him and he was calling his friends. So he left me in the room with the guy I was like sorry I dunno what my friends up to but I was like I'm sorry but I am not attracted to you and I don’t think my friend either so am asking you nicely to leave again. ofcourse he complained and got a lil angry but I just kicked him out.

Me and Steward had a lil argument because I told him to tell me if he didn’t like the guy so I could get rid of him instead of actin weird and going to the bathroom and tellin him to wait. Anyways he came with me to south beach to meet me friends from Amsterdam. I was so happy to talk my own language with people I knew.

The main friend I knew was let’s call him Buff was there with his friends let’s call them the Runner and Dumplings. Buff is a 5.10 black guy that has a muscular torso and a big ass but when naked you notice it’s just well proportioned meat. He is strong though don’t get me wrong. He’s shaved bold is cute in the face but is in his 30’s. Then you have the Runner. He has an athletic build body with a nice chest but not too big though and he is a baldy too lil less cute then Buff but he has a lil more personality though they’re best friends. And then there’s Dumplings. He is asian but really cute! And apparently Buff’s BOYFRIEND! Me and buff go way back and yes we used to mess around so it as insanely crazy for me to meet up with them and have his boyfriend round there too, right?

So we go to a liquor store and continue the party in the hotel room. After a short while Steward left to get someone from the airport. I gave him the room key and told him ill meet up with him tomorrow. So me and Dumplings are laying on the bed and we just talking. He said that he knew about me and Buff and I told him that I didn’t know he was in a relationship. He never said it and I asked him if he didn’t mind me being here and all. He said nah its fine Buff told me himself what happened and were adults I got over it. Okok so then I talk to Buff and he again says that Dumplings thinks I'm cute! When he said that I knew tonight was gonna be Madness. Oh Boi!

I was drunk from the liquor and when someone dropped the word Jacuzzi I was like why aren’t we in there yet! I took Dumplings and jumped in and the Runner joined us and Buff didn’t came in though. After 10 minutes everyone turned horny. And we had a foursome.

After that me, Buff and Dumplings slept in 1 bed and the runner in the other bed. But I snore so Dumplings left to sleep in the Runners bed. So me after a short nap/sleep Buff starts to get horny and makes a lil noise and starts touching, Dumplings heard it and came back to our bed and then we had a threesome…

I couldn’t take this I needed sleep after that I slept with the Runner… but after a lil while he got hard and started rubbin up against me, so I thought yeah sure why not let’s go. Me and the Runner had a one on one.

Sleep was useless at this point, because 1. I was so exhausted that I couldn’t go back to sleep, 2. It was 8am, 3. They had to check out their room before 11.

I didn’t know what to think about this day